friendship

Another anonymous blogger commented on my first post. I was really happy, smiled and said "huh" to myself. The comments were positive and I think she and I have alot in common. But an epiphany occurred and I realized something about myself that has been nagging me, stuck in the back part of my head, something that has been attempting to push to the front lobe of my brain, to a part of my head that recognizes my faults. I'm lonely.

I love my husband, kids and extended family members, but I think I might need friends in my life. Perhaps even girlfriends. I have not had a girlfriend since high school. I graduated in 1977. Marriage, work and then children and now work again have been my focus for 30 years. I never made time to keep friendships and acquaintances going.

My life was full. Not a minute to spare for girlfriends. Quite frankly, girlfriends were never a priority, even in high school. I never liked and still do not like the cattiness of girlfriends. Going out, complaining about husbands, kids or anything else never appealed to me. I like friendships of substance.

Maybe I need to give girlfriends another chance. Perhaps at the age of 40 plus, the cattiness is gone, and substance has replaced it. I'll look for a group to join, reading group, yoga, something that I am interested in, and try to bond with a few woman. Who knows maybe I'll make a friend or two.