This year G man's cousins are not coming for dinner. They decided to stay home with the baby and cook for their family. This will be Cousin Laura's first Thanksgiving dinner to cook by herself. I know she will do well and have alot of fun. Our table will be a little quieter and dinner a little smaller, the cousins will be missed.
My two brothers and their families, my mom, Veggass, and my cousin Andrea will be here. Jenny G and I have invited a few of her friends to come over. Some of them have families out of town and some of them just like to be here. I am not sure how many will show up, but the more the merry. I really love having people over for the holiday.
Becasue I am not working outside the house my time to plan and prepare for the day is my own. Having this time is fabulous, a luxury. Almost frivolous. For years I worked and could not get the time to plan and prepare. Then when I stopped working to stay at home with the kids my time was theirs not mine. But now I am free of work and kids activities. I never knew having time to myself could be so luxurious.
This freedom feels like selfishness. Sometimes I look around and hope the kids or G man will ask me to do something for them just so I don't feel so selfish. They do once in awhile but for the most part the novelty of me being able to run errands, make lunch, or switch loads of laundry for them has worn off. ( When I closed the store everyone wanted me to do for them, not so much now)
So now I am able to do what I want. My list of 2009 New Year resolutions could become a list with many check marks to indicate.......finished that.
At the Thanksgiving dinner table I will be able to say I am thankful for time and all that time allows me to do. Time is truly a luxury and one I will not squander.